I don’t want to be who I am anymore. Is that possible? Addicts who are surviving say relapse is always lurking and can never be fully extinguished. The dark fire is always there. Tonight I made a terrible mistake. I’ve made so many mistakes lately. I’ve made so many mistakes forever. Are they really mistakes […]Read More As An Addict I Find
“I’m A Loser Baby So Why Don’t You Kill Me?” – Beck “Even the losers get lucky sometimes.” – Tom Petty “I’m a creep.” -Radiohead “Guilty.” -Me I’ve been thinking about writing this post for several months. I don’t think I was avoiding it on a conscious level. Every time I thought of Beck’s line […]Read More Beck. Petty. Radiohead. Me.
This is not going to be a long post (famous last words). Part of the twelve step jargon is calling the community of people in the program a “fellowship”. As I am a card-carrying geek-dork, I immediately flash to: Someone said it in Monday night’s meeting and I suppressed a giggle…because I’m apparently 12 years […]Read More My Fellowship
Dr. Dre’s seminal boast from his classic song Nuthin’ But a G Thang from the immortal 1992 masterpiece The Chronic always made me laugh. My grammar nerdiness always chuckled at the redundancy. But I’ve been thinking about the word ‘slipping’ lately because it’s one of those ubiquitous terms in my twelve step program. Slipping is […]Read More Never Let Me Slip, ‘Cause If I Slip, Then I’m Slippin’
It sucks when you realize you are not a priority for someone else. It sucks even worse when they are a priority to you. I’ve realized a friend of mine (well, who knows if they are a friend – who knows what a friend is – who knows what a friend needs to do) has […]Read More Imbalance And The Active Voice