As An Addict I Find

I don’t want to be who I am anymore. Is that possible? Addicts who are surviving say relapse is always lurking and can never be fully extinguished. The dark fire is always there. Tonight I made a terrible mistake. I’ve made so many mistakes lately. I’ve made so many mistakes forever. Are they really mistakes […]

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Beck. Petty. Radiohead. Me.

“I’m A Loser Baby So Why Don’t You Kill Me?” – Beck “Even the losers get lucky sometimes.” – Tom Petty “I’m a creep.” -Radiohead “Guilty.” -Me I’ve been thinking about writing this post for several months. I don’t think I was avoiding it on a conscious level. Every time I thought of Beck’s line […]

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My Fellowship

This is not going to be a long post (famous last words). Part of the twelve step jargon is calling the community of people in the program a “fellowship”.  As I am a card-carrying geek-dork, I immediately flash to: Someone said it in Monday night’s meeting and I suppressed a giggle…because I’m apparently 12 years […]

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